Owie

I called out of work today and went to the Dr. My back is KILING me! So now I'm out til Monday. I feel like I failed, but I'm in alot of pain. I did as my Dr. what he thought about gastric bypass surgery and he said he thought it was a good idea and put in a referral to see a nutritionalist....FINALLY! I positive that more that half my health issues are weight related. Pain in muscles head to toe, cramps, high blood pressure, high cholestrol..etc. There are several people in my family that have already had the surgery so I already know what to expect, the good and the bad. My aunt almost died...scary but she succeeded. She went from around 400lbs to about 140. My mother and aunt on the other hand went from 240 and 300 down and back up again. There is a girl at work, Eva, she's pretty heavy and has a referral too so I think I'm going to try to team up with her and do this thing. I know it's an extremely long process but I'm psyched. I am gonna go on with the low carb diet starting tomorrow because I know the nutritionalist will tell me I have to eat better, etc. anyway.


I woke up at 2:30am this morning, pain. Kaity was up, she couldnt sleep either so we watched the reruns of The Bad Girls Club and stayed up til I called out around 7 and then I went to bed and she fell out on the couch. Got up around 11:30 and went and got breakfast at Dunkin' Donuts (The DD) in the hopes that Cliff and Kaity would be ok when I woke them up to clean today. Well I had to act like an idiot! When I came in I smelled piss so I left the door open and Cliff closed it so I got an attitude and said I can barely stand him anymore...that was so freakin' mean, I didnt mean it. I went into my bedroom and had my coffee and muffin in there then cleaned up. When I finally started to relax and stop acting like an asshole I came out and Cliff and Kaity were cleaning to I started helping them and apologized. Later I sat down on the couch with Kaity and she told that I REALLY upset Cliff and said she knows how it goes because she hurts people unintentionally all the time too then feels bad. I'm so damn lucky this man knows me and know that I don't mean the stupid, hateful, idiotic things I sometimes say to him. He is the love of my life and as Edward (Twilight) would say...."I don't want to live in a world where he doesn't exist". =)

This evening Kaity went with her daddy and Cliff took me to the Dr. for my back then to P.F. Changs to spend that last Gift Card...The best Chinese I've ever had but whew...kinda glad the gift cards are gone....I'm really tired of eating out! I know I know....I know unbelievable huh! lol So now we are home, watching reruns of Family Guy, playing computer games and rented some movies, G Force and District 9 I think. Maybe he will help me play my W.O.W. character later. (we are such nerds). =)