Friday, August 6, 2010
Here we go with another one of those effin days! I stayed in my room all day yesterday,so did Kait, but shes sick. Cliff woke me up at 10:15 talkin about wanting to give me some love. Some love? Some love would be letting me freakin sleep...geez! I'm grouchy as hell! I wish everyone would just go somewhere! I know that sounds terrible but its how I feel. I dont wanna make breakfast,or go to the store, or do Kaits hair. I dont wanna shower or get out of bed. I think when Cliff goes back to work I'm going to send Kait to her Dads for a while. If I can hang in there that long! I just wanna be alone! I have a headache, my neck and shoulders are KILLING me and I have the poops from the laxative I took yesterday. My battery is about to die...I'm out.
Thursday, August 5, 2010
I'm so crazy...I really need to stop pretending that I dont need a psychiatrist...lol...cause I do! Anyway...got a lot of phone stuff done for surgery today. Then comes the fact that I have to "fudge" a food log all the way back to March! I suck! I started, then got mad at myself and stopped. I dislocated my knee at work in April so I've become addicted to stupid Facebook games and eating. I have gained weight and now that I'm back on track (appt.-wise) I need to lose about 15-20lbs. Lose weight to get fat surgery, if thats not an oxymoron, I dont know what is...lmao! ;)~ I'm so deprssed I dont know what to do with myself...just thought seeing some words in black and white might help.