Thursday, October 24, 2013


I love how I wasn't updated on my moms hospital status before it was plastered on Facebook.

Wednesday, October 23, 2013


Moms on the hospital.  I think she's faking. I feel guilty about my feelings, but it's how I feel.  I love her with all my heart, I just don't know how to deal with her.  She keeps "going out", passing out I guess.  Maybe I just don't understand. #stressed

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Mom is mean, really, really mean.

Just realized I think I only come here to cry, whine and complain!  Welp! No sense in changing things up!  I'm in a little pain this morning.  Woke up at 5:00am to throbbing pain in my right shoulder, but after a bit of time with the heating pad and some Advil, I feel a little better.  My plan is to go to the grocery store this morning and get some couponing done.  We will see how that goes!  It's supposed to be 90' today.  In October.  Really?  Can we get a little fall weather please?  I miss Cliff like crazy, but need some alone time too.  This is good for us while I am waiting for insurance to kick in.  I'm not exactly the nicest person when I have no medication and I admit that I probably am the meanest to Cliff.  I'm sure it's because he's the one who will take my shit from me but only so much.  He knows right when to back off.

The other "big" thing in my life is planning my mother's 60th birthday party.  Not happy about this but feel obligated since we threw one for my Pop, who is my stepfather.  Mom is mean, really, really mean.  I have a strong feeling that during this party I will be humiliated by her, or my sister.  My sister decides this party will take place on Oct. 19th, which is also a date when my club was going to throw a haunted hayride.  That also means that many people invited who show up because they have prior plans to go to the haunted hayride.  So I have to give up the thing I want to do for the thing that I REALLY do not want to do.  My mom was diagnosed with Alzheimer's disease a few months ago so now my sister thinks that everything she says and does is excusable, but the doctors says as long as she takes the medication as directed she should see no symptoms.  So is she not taking her meds or is just a hateful woman?  We will see I guess. to finish couponing. PEACE!