Tuesday, July 23, 2013
Monday, July 22, 2013
Woke up fucking crazy
Woke up fucking crazy! Cliff got fired over a month ago for, of all things sexual harassment. Of course he didn't do it but I'm struggling with that too. I don't know what the hell goes on when I'm not around. Who does? Anyway, that's a whole other thing that I don't want to think about right now. He starts at Sheetz on Friday. I love that man with all my heart and soul, but I need a little space and time to miss and appreciate him. I'm writing today, because I gotta get it out. What do I gotta get out? I don't know, but something. I'm all but positive its bi-polar but it could be the Fibro. Kait will be 18 in exactly one month and its killing me. I have made an excellent "normal" friend in Sandy. I love that chick. She grounds me and helps me see the positive. The kind of friend that I feel like I try to be. I want to love Jen as my best friend, but I just cant do it. I feel like I'm calling her my best friend because I want Junior in my life. She's so selfish and makes everything a out her and her life. I hate some of the things she says, it hurts. I just wish I could find that one freakin life long friend! I think that could be Sandy but we will see. Right now, at this very moment, I feel like my mental breakdown has come to a peak and I'm starting to come down. The positive people in my life are all texting me. Sandy, Clifford, Kait, and Marcia (Mom). I love them. <3 and="" better...apologies="" cliff="" feel="" for="" get="" home.="" i="" kait="" listening...="" m="" nbsp="" ok="" out="" p="" thanks="" they="" when="">
Love,
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Love,
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