Anxiety hurts

Anxiety hurts, outside and inside, and everyone around you.

Why does my mother steadily make me feel guilty?

Why does my mother steadily make me feel guilty?  I seriously can't take it.  I feel like I'm on the edge of a nervous breakdown, and it scares me and I'm not sure what to do.  She's so jealous of my relationships with other people that she can't stand it so she acts out.  I don't know how to handle that.  While I'm laying in the bed playing games and arguing with my mother, my old dog pisses under my bed. WTF.  This is where I lost it and gave up. Screamed a little, took my meds, cleaned up the piss, put on hubbies tshirt and rescheduled our dinner with our friends, because I just can't do it today.   I can't do anything. The dog is shaking now and I feel bad.

BFF

Christina Perry's only human = my BFF Jen 💙

Time to get out of the bed

I just want to thank my aunt Debbie and my best friend Jen for getting me up and out of the bed even though that's where I want to stay all day. I feel like my depression is out-of-control, and I don't know how to deal with it. My heart hurts so much. I want my mommy. She is so mean.

Feeling better

At aunt Debbie's....feeling better ❤️

Easter?

You know what fuck Easter .  So stressed the fuck out this morning. My mother can't decide she wants to do for Easter I want to be with my friends and my anxiety is level seven so not really sure what to do but getting very very anxious. Headed to my aunt Debbie's She always makes me feel better.

Better

It's getting better I think.  I finally went to the dr but still a lot of anxiety and not much sleep.

Whats wrong with me? I mean serioiusly? I cant take it. There is seriously something wrongwith n======================================================= fuckit

Whats wrong with me?  I mean serioiusly? I cant take it.  There is seriously something wrongwith n======================================================= fuckit

Hurt

I hurt I don't know why medication I need rest.  All that I want to do is lay in this bed and sleep until I feel better and I hate that I want to have a life of my life is this bed right now this medication and tired I miss cliff